baby steps.

So... I saw my counselor Tuesday... It went good! I'm slowely but surely pulling through. I'm trying so hard to look at the bigger picture instead of looking in the mirror!!! I know God has it all in his hands. It's so hard to believe that i used to be sooo spunky and bubbly, and my eating disorder has changed that DRASTICALLY. I now hide myself from everyone... I'm ashamed!!
Last night i was histerical again. I have on and off mood swings now. Ana triggers those!! But i'm still trying to look to my savior instead of her.



Tonight is SCARRED!! I'm so excited. :) We have a drama that we are doing about an eating disorder. I think this will get the point across to many people who are struggling with this disease.
If you live in the Childersburg, AL area or around it, come to SCARRED!!! It's tonight around 10:15ish... or after the Childersburg game. It's at the first united methodist church of C'burg!! Come on out we'd be glad to have you!!!!!!! :)
SCARRED accepts ANYONE!!! So please come. This is an experience that will change your life!!!!


One thing that has been hard for me to grasp lately is looking in the mirror and being satisfied. I'm trying so hard to like what i see... but i don't!! I've been praying that God will show me my real beauty, but i guess it's up to me to look for it! I know i was made in HIS image, and HE thinks i'm beautiful, but i don't see it in myself. I don't know why... but  it causes me to get really emotional. I'm working on that too. I guess time will tell!!