As time goes by i'm starting to realize the destruction that's coming to my life...
I'm starting to see Ana's lies, and i'm starting to see the world through my own eyes instead of Ana's.
That's the reason for the name of this blog.
There are so many things that Ana can bring to your life besides an eating disorder. For instance, depression.
I have realized that i'm so depressed. And i know it's because of Ana and the lies she has tattooed(sp) across my heart....
Along with that, i'm starting to realize that God has given me a tattoo fade system!!! He CAN wash this away... I just have to want it.
God tatooed his love across my heart as well, and i am forever his! If only i could hold on to that the way that i hold on to Ana...
I miss the way things used to be!! Before i got into my eating disorder, when i was so close to God and to my family... and now all of that has faded away. I know i can have all of that back... It's all calling my name! But i'm so consumed in Ana that i can't concentrate on the happiness of being consumed and completely lost in the beauty of my God!
I'm finally starting to see through the eyes of my God, instead of the eyes of my eating disorder. I'm starting to realize that i don't have to be perfect, because God has already taken care of that!! And all i have to do is do what it takes to please him, and strive to be a christian.
Ana's lies are starting to get old. Depression is starting to get old! i'm starting to see between the truth and the lies, i'm starting to see that faith is blind, and that i don't have to earn grace, because jesus did that for me when he shed his blood on the cross!
Perfection does NOT exist. And trying to obtain that will only put me in a worse situation than i am already in! I'm tired of trying to be perfect, because i'm already beautiful enough in God's eyes!
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