Take a STAND!

Today has been a good day so far. i ate lunch like usual.
I felt Ana attacking me with every bite! In my mind there are SO many things going through my mind while i eat. Like: how much should i eat? Do i look fat? Ana tells me that eating in front of other people is disrespectful and that i look stupid and fat when i do it. Most of the time i don't believe her, but it has caused me to skip a meal every now and then....

But i'm STILL fighting and STILL trying to pull through this. Even though it's hard, i know that i have God there to wipe away every sin! He knows that i'm beautiful and that i don't need Ana to get by or i don't need her for any source of comfort. Knowing that has brought me through a lot.


There have been SO many supportive people in my life through this time! and a lot who helped me through this specifically. I know that should be enough. But it simply hasn't been.

Last night the whole SCARRED team went to The Basement. It was an amazing experience once again.
The message was on "The Stand". The question was asked, what do you stand for? If you don't STAND up and STAND for something then you WILL fall! and thinking about that helped me a lot!!!
How can i stand for something that only wants to bring destruction to me? How can i stand for something that is going to take me to the grave???


All you have to do is STAND for Jesus. He stood for us, and now our sins are washed white as snow. If you STAND for jesus and believe in what he did for you, you WON'T fall!!! You will STAND with the angels and glorify his name on the day of judgement!!! Are you ready? are you standing???

STAND up.
STAND out.
and STAND tall for what you believe in! you don't have to stand for Ana!! Stand for God! life is so much better that way.