Written all over her face.

So, i'm going to start seeing my school counselor once a week. I feel very... i don't know, different. about talking to someone on a regular basis. I guess it's because i always thought i'd never let myself get to the point where i would need help.

But i guess that just goes to show you how tricky an eating disorder can be.

The reason this blog post is titled "written all over her face" is really obvious, especially to me. Last night i had a breakdown. I felt SO horrible about my eating disorder. And i was SO mad at myself. I felt like my eating disorder was written on my forehead, because so many people know about it now. Needless to say, i was bawling. Spending your evening crying on the bathroom floor, not so great!!! But then i went into my room and a song came on the radio: Whispers in the dark by Skillet. Hearing that song reminded me that God is whispering to me even in the dark, i'm just too caught up in Ana to listen!!! 

So maybe, it's a GOOD thing that people know about my eating disorder. Now, i can use it to my ADVANTAGE to preach the word of God and tell everyone what he had gotten me through! WRITE IT ON MY FOREHEAD!!! I want everyone to know how my God saved me. It's a BEAUTIFUL thing!!!!! I am constantly amazed at the beauty God sees in me. Don't ever forget that you ARE beautiful!!!!! :)