Well my weekend was good... some things happened that tried to let me down, but i fought back!!!! A lot is going on right now and it just makes me feel like my life is spinning out of control... i don't know what to do about all of that. I've come so close to coming back to Ana sooo many times. But luckily i haven't yet!! I just don't want to loose everything i've worked so hard for. It's hard to go back, but i want to at times.
It's confusing!!! I'm still praying that God will show me HIS purpose for my life. That the bigger picture is what really matters. I need to know that there is a bigger picture for my life and that i will get out of the hole i'm in.... i just hope it will turn out sooner rather than later!!! I know that God will keep his promises.
But i'm trying my best to live a HEALTHY lifestyle. Instead of cutting out my eating disorder by having junk food all the time and being unhealthy, i want to eat healthy foods and excercise like i should, to show myself that i CAN treat my body right and i don't have to worry about being overweight. The only problem with that would be if i took it too far. I know i have to be careful about how much i eat and how much i excercise. I have to balance that out. That's what i think i'll have the most trouble with. But either way, i want and need to treat my body like it was intended... the bible says our bodies are God's temple, and when we destroy our bodies, we are destroying God's temple. That's a really powerful message to me, being a Christian. I DON'T want to destroy God's temple, but at the same time i know i am by what i am doing to myself. I guess that's a contradiction... lol.
But anyways, PLEASE be praying for my friend's brother. He has kidney stones and will be on dialysis for 6 months. He is okay, but prayers won't hurt!!!!!!!
For any of you that live in or around the childersburg area, SCARRED is on Nov. 20. anyone is welcome!!! It's at the 1st methodist church of childersburg. It starts around 6. Pookie Hall will be speaking. There will be 2 dramas!!! Please come out! You don't want to miss out on this experience!!! :)
stay strong. Don't give up.
ReplyDeleteEat HEALTHY, but eat ENOUGH! You can go to the food pyramid website and enter your weight, height and activity level and it will recommend the amount of calories your body needs to be healthy. BUT, don't obsess over calories, that is just falling into another trap. Treat it healthy...balance it out. Everything in moderation :)
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